| Its Lilly.
I finally got the internet, to find an email in my junk inbox. I dont know why it was there, when it certainly wasnt junk. It was a 5 paragraph email on why Kalen wasnt going to be there for me anymore. At first, I thought he was just going to get over me. I didnt want him to hurt over me any more, anyways. It was enough that I had to leave him behind.
The paragraph that hurt me the most was somewhere in the middle, between the heartache and the ending. "Ill always love you, but I just cant do this anymore. I can only find happiness with this blade to my wrist. But Lilly, youre my soul and whereever I am you'll always be. I tried to get over this, I really did. I even stopped posting on xanga because it reminded me of the days where I would blabber on about some angelic girl who was with someone else. For those brief moments where I had you, I thank god but now that youre not here with me I cant do anything at all. I cant eat, sleep, breathe. For when I sleep, I always dream of you. I cant do this anymore."
He gave me his username and password to this site so that I can inform you. He thanks you for being here, especially when hes whiney about me. Thats exactly what he wanted me to say. Ill keep this up to explain to everyone. The world will never be the same.
I love you Kalen.
Ill always remember you.
Love,
Lilly. |
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| Yes, she wont stop calling me. Actually Im "talking" to her now..Shes annoying.
moveing along...My mom wont give up on asking me whats wronge..It buggs me..Alot. The one time everything is decent, she cares about me. Thanks mom. I love you too.
I love this song.
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
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| Sorry. Nothings really changed..I dident know what to write..
Anyways, Lilly hasent mailed me in a while..I miss her like crazy..
I made a new friend though...Stacy. shes...Alright..I think shes on crack..When ever I see her she jumps on me and makes me fall..
Anyways, I must go becasue my mom is mad at me for leaveing the dish in the sink and not washing it... :-p
Ciao my lovesss |
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|  I miss Lilly...*tearr* No one comments me no moreeeeee..Whyyyyyyyyyy? |
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